Tuesday, March 01, 2005
Argh...rather depressed today for some reasons or another...Begin to wonder if I m suitable to survive in tis world...gosh...so many jus too many tings to tink abt esp startin a family with a love one...Can i regret n stand back? I tink i m afraid...so lost n fear of wat's comin ahead...will darlin 4giv me if i let go of tis rn?
Y is livin a life so difficult? y r there so many problems...i cant breathe...i cant cope...it is reli so hurtful...guess it is jus me...i cant carry on wif my carefree way of living....Oh no i hav to adapt to those stressful lifestyle...how can??? How can i feel hapi??? How can i feel relax??? If i cant take it how, kill myself or run away??? Pls pls dun torment me can??? It is terrible to b livin in misery...tink i cant take it...my darlin will be disappoint in me...so sooner is better than later more disappointed rite??? Cruelty of life--->no matter hw hard u try to get rid...it will nv go off...it jus stick to u like super glue...HELP pls go away...I cant take it no longer...
Guess like wat hubby had said...no money cant survive...little money oso cant survive...n worst hapiness a simple innocent ting has been corrupted by money...hw can??? Y would ppl allow tis to happen???
I wan my hapi little carefree life back...i wana feel reli hapi from e bottom of my heart not pretend to b hapi...is tis small little request reli hard to achieve???
cheyanne (>_<) last posted ; 12:30 PM