Wednesday, February 01, 2006
Woot....hapi lunar new year everyone....gosh i almost on
MC tis mornin...haha...serve me rite 4 feastin on too much new yr goodies...cuz me 2 haf sore throat and sore eyes...LoL...lucky 2day my sore eyes subsided thx 2 mama brewed chysanthemum ginseng...
But it is a stony day at wk 4 me...as most of my colleagues are on leave...so the office is quiet & peaceful...n my eyes hurt but nt tat puffy n swollen...
yeah finally can plan on fixing a new comp....but jus realise aft calculatin i'll nid ard 2k...gosh so hav 2 postpone it...cuz i actually utilised some money 4 facial...gosh...stupid me...
~HoW i SpeNd mY CnY~
bad bad...1st day as usual went 2 my relative hse at bukit panjang, then go holland rd ah ma hse...haiz...jus realise tat my relative sucks...oh well...it all adult tingy...but my bro was rather unhapi...a very long time ago ever since i grew 2 noe tat my mum was abandon by my grandma due 2 horoscope clash...i oredi distant myself fr her...
haiz...nw even my aunts & uncles oso dun giv my mama face...keep saying bad tings abt her nt takin care of my ah ma...haiz...so gradually hate 2 go visiting...
then went 2 my papa's bro...which is my 2nd uncle there 2 visit him...wah...gt upgrade of angbao $$ times 2....woot....then we had to squeeze 8 pax in my uncle car hm...LoL....
~The Shock~
hahaha....everyone noe i haf a cousin with the same dialect name as me...n worst look alike...it is my papa's younger bro....lucky i din perm my hair if nt same as her....then lucky i change my hp too...cuz she oso gt e same hp as me...argh...
hate it since young cuz either side mama will buy same clothing which 2 of us will wear n kinda embarass...so oways wana be diff fr her...
~MooD~
bad bad....been like so down down down these few days...no one seems 2 understand my plight...no one seems 2 feel hw i felt...so been cryin myself 2 slp...feelin terrible...even my parents oso dun understand...haiz...
worst....almost kana as was chattin wif strangers & wana seek comfort fr duno which tom,dick or harry sia...cuz it seems like strangers can understand me more loh...but aft tinkin thru...strangers jus wana be nice so can get fresh wif me...so lucky din fall into their traps...
but i admit i m & stil rather vulnerable...jus wana a short break fr everytin sia...
~Family~
papa....no listen...no ctrl wat he shld nt eat...ended up wif leg pains & cant reli walk for cny...me n mama was so pissed scolding him yet he stil eat...haiz...
bro...finally he finished his ns le....nw lookin 4 job....he gt tis teacher job 2 teach kids do some technical stuff...oso nt too sure la...but is part time job onli...
~BF~
hmmm duno wat 2 say...he busy i no mood...so frequency lvl diff again...so i duno wat he hav been doin & he cant understand me oso....so no talk much...but i reli nid comfort fr him loh...but he idiot duno hw 2 care de la...oso he busy then he will be self centred...he will rest & hapi himself le then remember my existence...haiz...
~Future~
well suddenly feel very bleak abt my future...worst abt bein hapi wif my job...nt very sure of my prospects & etc....suddenly drop fr my high hopes sia...
okie...tat's all...guess any fren who is free & wana comfort me...feel free 2 sms or call me bah...
♥♥♥
cheyanne (>_<)
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