Friday, May 05, 2006
yippy...2day is da hapiest day in my life...grey skies clear n can finally c da rainbow...
ytd i was so upset as my pa cant walk n he's suppose 2 take care of mum...while me can work in peace as i m e main source of income in my family...yet he dun listen n anyhow eat....
so upset tat i reli wana do sumtin foolish n in return hope my pa will "wake up" n listen...tat is ctrl his diet n exercise...so i sms my mum my very last words...make her cry n wori...
n end up callin bf...n frens...in da end as i dun wana add onto bf prob n make him wori...n i noe he oredi duno wat 2 do wif me...so i called 1st bf...n he bought me ard....n send me hm rite 2 my doorstep so i wont run away....
then upon reachin hm..mum was so sad...cum into my room n we hug n cried tog...as i cant talked 2 her as she is ill....din wana add onto her wori...so all tis while i hav 2 be strong yet it is so tough...esp when i wana quit my job 2 take care of them n end up losing income...haiz...
thus we cried n chat...then i hug her n slp wif her...so nice...n din talk 2 my pa...well mum say he will change...hopefully he will change sia...
then i call bf aft we "argue" n din talk 4 a day...cuz mum said she call des n make him wori...yup...he was woried n wana take cab go east coast find me...
sori sori 2 make mum,des,nana,dada,jerry n serene 2 wori...i dun mean it...mum n des stil tink i will go east coast... but i tot tat it will be beta 2 go east coast but make it easy 4 them 2 find me..so i din go as i dun wan 2 leave them an impression tat i was jus creating attention...i reli wana die...so i went elsewhere....
i oso make a colleague wori...tis mornin she gave me a brownie n flower 2 cheer me up...nice of her n i gave her a big nice hug....
i m tryin 2 slowly pick up e pieces...esp wif my work...i even emailed my Asst Director ytd sayin i m sori tat my family prob affected my work badly...n cuz her lots of problems...
thx for all ur concern, 4 those who gave me fone support, pray 4 me & my family and spend so much time on me...e days of darkness is finally ova....
for my mum...reli luv u alot too, sori 4 addin wori 2 u...n we will grow strong tog, n fight ur illness...
cheyanne (>_<) last posted ; 12:26 PM