Friday, August 08, 2008
went 2 watch "Moni nt enuff" wif qiang,belle,xiong n han...at 1st luff non stop...then e sad part abt e mum dying old age n no one wan her...wah...make me cry...tink of my grandma in msia...
n oso e part abt bein poor yet wif loving supportive wife n children...damn touching...
cum 2 tink of it...where mines? is wat i m havin nw reli my soulmate?
worst..while waitin 4 my dear bb 2 cum hm...had a great chat wif his mum...hmmm...his mum say wat her son cant earn much...me muz suffer...hahaha...
well well...wat is e rite choice n wat is e wrong choice? if ur partner is willing 2 buck up n create a family tog...y nt? wat happen if he dun wan? wat will u do?
his mum say her son stil very immature muz pardon him...hahaha...hw mature is consider mature?
seriously...been tog so long le...hw much does he understand me? treat his mum oso so fake...when his mum say sumtin...he jus orh orh orh...nw oso do tat 2 me...kaoz...isit me or wat?
being too long in a r/s...then start 2 pick on him...start 2 get displease wif his actions...adding onto tat...he nv fail 2 make me upset...he nv fail 2 make me tink tat he like abit heck care tis r/s...
cant he put in a little more effort...wat e hell is he tinking...hmmm...jus like his mum ask him buy stuff...he listen onli halfway...
okie..i m touched by him tryin 2 make me hapi...yet tat nt wat i wan...n i tot i told him tat if i cant get it...i rather nt haf then 2 find a subsitute...tink he nv pay attention 2 me n my feelings...
argh...or isit me too picky...mayb we too close tat y? duno but i jus haf tis feeling tat he is taking me forgranted...n i cant help 2 associate everytin tineey weneey prob/issue wif him taking me forgranted...
haiz...i reli duno hw 2 tell him stuff...hw 2 make sure my message is being brought across n pin in his brain...or he simply dun care...
mayb he dun reli luv me...he jus wan me cuz i care 4 him...cant he jus reciprocate wat i haf done?
talk abt 7th mth...been having nitemares...n kana bug...hate it...yet cant do much...faster go away sia...
all tis stuff is making me damn damn upset...damn damn depressed...deep deep down...n duno wat can i do....stop bugging me la...i wana b hapi..
cheyanne (>_<) last posted ; 2:24 AM