Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Ya was missin in action...kinda lost interest in everytik...slowly recoverin fr a big big wound...
my dearest beloved mummy has gone 2 heaven le...rather sudden n stil overcomin her leavin us...yup dad is e most affected....he was there when mummy past away...
i tot she stil can tahan abit longer...well i took pm leave on 3rd Mar & was at KK patiently waitg 4 mummy 2 b here tog wif bro n daddy...
she was sent 2 hosp by ambulance as she cld nt walk...lucky we sent her on time...her heartbeat was like 204/min...gosh...
then we were all at her side...my strong mummy...tis is e 1st n e last time i heard her whine in pain...tat reli hurts me alot alot...
aft everytin...she was sent 2 POA aka Post Operation Area where she was bein monitored until her condition stablized then she can b put 2 e ward...
they did a blood test n xray then...we waited patiently again n massage n rub mummy 2 ease her pain...
at abt 8++9pm...doc talked 2 us...told us 2 prepare 4 e worst...yup i cant help it n broke dwn in tears....i even told mummy n was in tears...i rmb her talkin 2 me.."cry wat cry, gt wat 2 cry" until 2day i stil rmb tis few words...cuz tis is e longest sentence she ever spoken 2 me b4 she is gone....
doc gave her morphine n blood...n i left her rather late...i reli regret leavin her...i shld hav stayed...
mornin i went 2 wk n was like jus there nt long...n kana a fone call fr hosp...i rushed like mad 2 hosp...n stil too late...she is gone 4eva...
i cried like mad...huggin her...n until nw i stil wana hug her...i miss her voice too....
times flies these past few days...took a few more days of leave 2 settle stuff as she left so suddenly...
oso i can hav more time 4 my daddy...daddy been in dazed nowadays...i m rather worried 4 him...
nw we onli hav daddy....n me n bro promised 2 pei him as much as we can n oso make him hapi...
thx alot for many frens tat turned up & gave me support & encouragement...I'll slowly get well...
i cant do it fast enuff..it will take mths to a yr...cuz mummy is e best...she knows us best...she oways there 4 me...nw she is gone...i m reli lost...
tons of stuff 2 settle...
1. daddy's health & hapiness
2. my own health n bb
3. mummy's remaining stuff 2 clear n settle
etc etc...
cheyanne (>_<) last posted ; 11:42 PM